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Friday, March 17, 2006

At what point do you realise enough is enough? That you can no longer justify their actions? That you can no longer find it in yourself to forgive them or accept the endless excuses. I've realised it for awhile, but i also know...i can't action it. Everyone knows i'm not capable of it.

But how and when can i stop "hoping" that it will all be better? How do i make myself stop setting expections for myself? When can i finally realise and accept that things may never change? That every action is just a mere attempt to mask the real issue and withhold the inevitable?

I'm sick of analysing everything, beating myself up and making up excuses for their behaviour to myself. When will it ever end? Why can't i stand up for myself and put myself first?

I'm tired of being patient.

I'm tired of putting in all the effort and not getting the recognition or the effort returned. I've asked myself soo many times - why do i bother? someone please tell me.

On the flipside, without it...what will i be?

posted by Minty @ 11:21:00 pm

Comments:

much better off

posted by  Anonymous : Sun Mar 19, 08:15:00 pm

 

i sympathise, its probably the hardest scariest thing you can do...and trust me there will be regret, tears and sadness following for months after. however despite all the anguish, you will survive after, and feel less stress, happier and there will be less tears...

posted by  melicious : Mon Mar 20, 10:40:00 am

 

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