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Thursday, April 03, 2003

Hmm.. i'm feeling emotional tonite.. and i dont know why! Its been a tiring day i guess..

I've just spent most of my night writing out my ITPS speech on palm cards. OMG.. it took me soooo long! I've had enough of uni.. i'm sick of it. This year seems soo different for me. I really wanna try hard and get somewhere this year. I dont wanna be left behind again.....

I guess i'm missing what uni used to be all about. Its become all work work work. I miss the BITS.. i miss looking forward to rewarding myself after class.. which is what we always used to do.. now.. i guess its just not the same. I think Mel and Mamo would know how i feel...

Gosh, i think the sad songs i've got playing has gotten to me. I feel alone. Have u ever felt alone even though your surrounded by ppl...? I'm concentrating better at uni.. there arent any problems with Will.. so why do i feel this way? I dont know... i guess UNI is all there is about me. I havent had time to hang out with friends.. or enjoy myself.

Strangely though, Nam called me today..cos he wanted to have lunch with me. He thought i was still working... i kinda wish i was.. It just seems to me that everyone is soo self-absorbed atm.. including myself. My days are spent worrying about getting work done.. anyone out there have time for things other then work? Let me know!

Oh guess what? I had the most depressing dream this morning. I was meeting up with a really old friend Kylie and some other guy i dont remember for dinner in Ashfield..and then all of a sudden.. there was bombs falling out of the sky. I was soo scared.. running around trying to get protection. I lost kylie and the guy during all the commotion and i was alone. I think all the war events has got me scared. It was horrible. I hope it never comes to that! You know what.. i think i'm afraid of being alone..

Anyways, Anda's site is back up and its simply beautiful! Anna's got her page up too. I just finished having a look at these sites! Have a look.. theyre soo creative and talented!


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posted by Minty @ 2:23:00 am